Lost Cause

She was cancer and chemo
Burn and balm
Breaking like a wave over rocks
As she beat against my senses
And my four hour old memories

I didn't know better
Or did and didn't care

So I stepped to the edge
Feeling that lump in my throat
You get just before you jump
Knowing it's not suicide you're chasing
But flight

I was fucked
Long before she slept with me

- February 1, 2016, 1:15 AM